I Know

Some may want to SCREAM at the top of their lungs: "You don't know anything about me!". "You don't know how it feels to be outside the crowd.." "You don't know what it's like to be left out." and "And you don't know how it feels to be your own best friend."

I hate to admit this, but I do. I know exactly what it is like to be left out and be outside of the crowd. And I may be embarrassed to admit it, but I am my own best friend. Yes, I cry sometimes just thinking about it. I know it is hard. Sometimes I sit by myself and the loneliness just sets in so deep that I don't know how I can possibly make it to tomorrow.

Last night I realized something, and I am going to use the following quote to explain it:

"We must be more concerned
with what we do
with what happens to us,
than what actually
happens to us."

Life sucks, I agree. Boys break your heart, grades come back lower than expected, best friends betray you, roommates turn on you. Bad things are bound to happen. And if we let all these crappy things tear us down, we are letting them WIN. We can't do that... I can't do that. I'm sick of being my own best friend. I'm sick of letting everyone control MY life. Instead of letting everyone trample all over you like I have been doing, try standing up for yourself. And if they still walk out, stand up, and walk out the other direction. Choose to walk out as well. Don't dwell in an empty room wishing they'd come through that door. Walk out, and choose to make up for lost time.

Sing at the top of your lungs.
Do a cartwheel.
PERFORM karaoke.
Say "HI" to everyone you pass.
Ask how people are doing,
and actually listen to the answer.
Be optimistic!
Think positively..
About your own life, and other people.

What's the point of being miserable? I used to follow a saying my sister once said: "If you're already miserable, you might as well be more miserable." She said it half jokingly, half serious. I said it, and I believed it. But why? I deserve better.. I deserve to be happy. All those people hurt me... So why should I let their stupidity rule my life??

[Take control] of your life. Start telling yourself you are happy, and that you're over it... And maybe one day, you might believe it. Letting others destroy you is no way to live, you know that. And right now you may be really really sad. And you may wish it could all just end. But give yourself a chance. You can do it. Even if right now you're at the bottom of a dark, deep pit of despair and you feel like its never ending...


I know how it feels. I know what it is like.
i.am.my.own. best friend.